Bitter-Sweet

The day finally came... little James was going to his new home. We woke up early Sunday morning because his new family was coming at 8:30 in the morning. We got all his stuff together... toys, cages, care tools, treats, food, etc. We fed him, brushed him, and loved on him as much as we could for the last moments we had.

(I'm tearing up as I type...)

James was my first dog and will always hold a special place in my heart. He was a handful, yes, but he was asweetheart. Unfortunately with the baby coming, we just didn't have the time that he needed for proper training, attention, and all the other things he needed. He was perfect for us but our new lifestyle just isn't condusive to having a puppy that's still learning the ways of our world.

The new puppy mom was extatic. She was so excited to come and get him. After Jamsie calmed down shortly after their arrival, she picked him up and he sat calmly in her arms. She'll be great for him. I was holding strong... no sign of tears yet... until she spoke the words, "This is killing you isn't it?" I almost lost it then. I muttered yes and had to look away. There are so many memories I have of the little guy, the cuddles, the kisses, the playtime... I'll miss it.

Luke helped her and her husband take all James' stuff out to their car. They loaded it all in, we put his leash on him and off they went. Luke shut the door behind them and I lost it. Tears flowed. I couldn't stop. That was MY puppy... I raised him. I taught him his tricks. I knew what each bark meant. I knew when he had to go potty or needed to eat. I knew when he was going to want to cuddle or be left alone. His red stuffed toy was his favorite for fetch. Tug of war with his tiger was the daily routine. No more wet puppy kisses. No more cold noses trying to get under the bed covers with me. No more little snores that were annoying at the time but looking back... priceless. No more waking up to him spooning Luke and having both their heads on the same pillow.

Time for a new season. Time to move on. We have a baby on the way and we need to focus on that. James is behind us and living a new life in Jeff City with a new, great family that will be wonderful for him. Maybe someday we can get another dog when our kids are old enough to hlep out and take responsibility for it. Until then, our kids will be our pets. They can be taught to sit, stay, laydown and fetch too. Oh the fun that is to be had...